I support you in your posts with crafts, hobbies, therapy , etc. i also think its cool to have a friend who is curious. Friends who are different are the most interesting. Since you mentioned it Alot of people turned out to be different then intended. I personally never intended to be different myself plus i never thought i would be a esoteric version of mk ultra. I do have a sense of humor on top of that which has taken me a long way at times.