@Stormm thanks again. actually i might be the kind of person who went through programming they had in the early eighties. i have touched on how i was with family services and i suspect i was possibly with a program that processed children. such as ibis. something like building 400 might be a possibility but i have no memories of new york. yet my irish American grand father was born in new york and moved to ohio who has a known hospital system. im sure your familiar with how they track families. i agree with how people grow by not being comfortable. you bring up a good point with being aware. i assume i have average bone strength but i dont know. i just know i was assaulted by a full grown man at 14. he got some good shots in the temple area but i wasnt knocked out. my parents sued him after i had a correctable case of tmj. then there was the time where i fell on concrete stairs and bounced back. my employer kept asking if i needed help like i was a snow flake and the only thing i got was a scar on my right elbow. last but not least i seem to have natural internal sayings like "eyes on the prize" or "do your best". not sure if those where apart of brainwashing. anyway your books are def on my list to read. on a side note im recently interesting how one would toy with their opponents perception. currently im not sure how its done in an effective way without powers. thanks