are your dreams jumbled up? one dream is clear and concrete and you soon have abstract situations and places?
this is what it looks like, and I will tell you again that these are not dreams, these are your memories, I remember such things that I feel bad when I think about it, sometimes I'm afraid of myself, I'm afraid of what may come next, that's good that they erase our memories, we would not be able to live, I would have killed myself a long time ago