well it looks like I found a book that is suppressed. I like to learn about actual things like real magic and real powers or abilities. even real cryptids things they like to hide. also Im building a core book collection for myself. its currently so set apart from the others that I can just grab  and go in an emergency. anyway the psychic called Helena blavatsky has entered my awareness thanks to things like my vibration and curiosity. she is actually the unusual kind of psyscic. she seemed to have entered another plain of reality at will and then returned. this person has several books. however her book called the science of magic is hard to find on a platform like amazon or Barnes and noble. the same thing for related books like energy manipulation. don't quote me on that title. I just thought I would post this on the system. as far as magic I still say you must Bend yourself and then the outside might follow. that Is square one.

a side note. I seem to attract objects and ideas according my frequency and things I resonate with. its hard to explain. like when I was having trouble with work last year I found either a ace of diamonds or ace of hearts on the ground and it reminded my of magic. I don't over look odd things I find. I have even found a coin from new Zealand in my tips or a little cup that looked like a tiki god in my parking space. just a interesting side note

thanks for reading.