I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. Just know, your not alone. I get triggered too- I was in the US Air Force. I'm a psychic intuitive empathy.  I was/am part of a psychic remote viewer MILAB program.  I think that everything is going well, then get triggered or pulled into the astral to do their bidding.  It has been a long time since I woke with bruises on my upper inner thighs, wrists etc,  but I had that and more this past weekend. 

What helps me is I ground myself every night. I think of strong roots extending down into the earth. I chain my higher self to the earth and I set protective barriers around myself and house. I know it's all very scary.  It wasn't until this fall and I joined this forum that I've been able to find some peace.  The more I vibrate, the more I learn. I have to sometimes take a break from it all because the memories can be too much. 

My soul is not from earth, so I think that is why I get messed with, along with my abilities and why I was recruited.  It's important to find a good group to be able to have support.  My family would think I'm crazy and on drugs if I told them my experiences... so I know how you feel.

Hang in there.... 

In love, light and blessings-

Mrs. M