I am going thru some really freaky shit and i don't know who i am any more on top of it all. That seems to be changing too and i have to wonder is it alters taking over, or maybe symptoms of something good.i don't fucking know.
We are more in control of ourselves than we sometimes think. Sometimes our subconscious wants to let us go wild with emotions, let it all hang out, you know, get into an argument, be anxious and excited, get angry, be dramatic, get scared, or happy, or sad, or obnoxious, just let out that repressed energy inside. We live in a repressed society. We all need healthy outlets to ground and calm our minds. Easier said than done, I can barely take my own advice half the time I was just today, reflecting on some tense circumstances with a co-worker, and I concluded that the guy was subconsciously creating conflict of his own freewill, where he didn't need to create conflict, though a part of him kept creating the conflict, a part of him wanted the tension... but sometimes you just gotta turn the brain off and relax, no shame in that.