I know what you mean! I don't ever not talk about it. lol I can't seem to help myself.
Sounds like you may be milab. Sorry. I wish i could shut the whole operation down. The last time they took me that i remember, we were all in a dumb. We were standing in lines. I seem to remember no one in the lines was dressed. lol lovely. Anyway i was lucid and thought i am not taking this shit. So i started a fight. lolol Last i remember. Funny thing is so many joined in and they were smiling! =) Last programming session i remember i was lucid and fought the programming. They weren't getting any where with me. Last i remember there, too. But, damn it, i am fighting back any way i can.