@eevie well i kind of got a taste of religious trauma. So i cant imagine what a real project would do. a side of me thinks being the fifth horseman is a cool thought. However i dont remember that kind of programming. Its nothing like your expiriences but i mentioned i was in a cult. Well it was actually a christian group but i dont mention that since i respect all kinds of faith. The group was in a cult news documentary called mind over mania. I posted a video about it. My family was religious in the first place so i found public groups and churches easily. Here is the link.