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Eclipse posted:

@Zozo thanks for your replys and thoughts. did you have any dreams you wanted to post? just asking because its mostly a dream log as well. 

No problem,Im here to help others and to know more about myself.Writing about those "special"experiences is activating my memory,but,again(!),its so late that is actually morning here...I just came home and Im barely writing,same like last time,but Il do my best...For me it is hard to go to sleep like "normal"people do.I have my own cycles when to sleep.Im often more than 48h awake.Sometimes up to 4 days.Its all messed up,you know.          I will tell you about few of my dreams and many other things that I can say only here and sometimes in you tube comment section...I just read what that guy wrote and,as much as I want to understand/help someone,I dident like all those sentences starting with; I am... .I dident like that,just sayin you know...I hate no one,btw

Do you remember that movie; 300 ?! About Spartans?!Well,it was like that for me, before,when I was being trained ,but I still dont know,who was I working for?!First of all,you are right about A.I.thing,Im to "good" to be something sneaky and,evil in its core.Lets face it,A.I. is where the worst prisons are and is working only with militant reptilians to enslave us too.So,I dont think any more that I can be something like A.I.

For many years,I had a"dream" about me,being without any weapon or special abilities,that I was aware of,but,now I know that without my special "smart" thinking,I couldent survive all that,no way...So,I was just like that,almost naked with my bare hands, thrown in the most extreme environment, where I had to go through an area where there were,running freely(!),super intelligent Velociraptors...So,all I could do is,to do my "job" and go through that most extreme,hostile environment with,those smart beings guarding that territory.Just like that scene,where the Spartans left,almost naked kid,to survive the cold winter night,with nothing,well he had a spear and he killed a dire wolf and survived the cold...It was like that,for me,but without a spear.Just to say,that I always found a way out,but I was in such extreme pressure during those missions,that I never could actually have one night of rest,you know?!"Real" life was hard enough,but when others sleep,Im doing those missions "against" reptilians...I mean Cmon!Gimme a brake!Did I sign for all this?!But,I have my ways,to stay alive,always...

Before that experience,I had to,again,without anything,survive (now I know,they were humanoid reptilians(maybe (like) on Mars?!) being captured by them.Thats all,but in so "simple" assignment,you have to be all you can be,or you will be,no more...

From all those missions,abductions,maltreatment in"real"life,being beaten from when I was just 3 years old and then I had to survive the real freakin War!Yes,that too really happened to me,from 1991 - 95.I could be born and live in any other town,or in any other part of my town,but of course,my flat was and still is,only 50 feet(for real!) from main army barracks!Just imagine how many bombs fell near and on my building!Not on other buildings!Or 50 feet left or right,but directly on my head.Imagine odds for that to happen to you?! They were ruthless.They were "sending" everything that they had(and they had everything and more!).Thousands of grenades! All day long!And all night long !Non stop.Like WWII ,but bloodier and more gruesome(Vukovar,etc..),more personal,we were friends with Serbs,normal life,untill that war really happened to me and I really dont know how I survived all that shit...They were the 7th(!) strongest army,in the freakin WORLD!!Against a small country like Croatia?!Without army or anything at that time!But you know what:     WE WON.    Thats all Im gonna say.

Now,I remembered one detail,that I always wanted an answer to...I always wanted to know(maybe this will sound stupid);"What happens when/if you die during those missions?".Now I know the answer,but that means,that I never,ever(!) died in a mission(!) and this is freakin almost unbelievable to me,but I know it is really like that!Im tellin how it is/was and what was I wondering at the time. 

Im always there,where is the biggest mess and Im always alone.I know(presume) why Im here now and why my life was and still is so freakin hard...Now it is 07.22 in the morning and I will tell you some more stuff that happened to me,but I must go and at least ,try(!),to go to sleep,but I dont think thats gonna happen today.But I will try to rest,at least...

Greetings to all!

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