@Zozo thanks for sharing all that. eclipse is at a loss for words. one can only say sorry. or if i see a vet the only thing i can say is thanks for my freedom. when they might have lost friends in action and had no time to think of it till after the fact. i talked to a girl in isreal and her town has a history of taking rocket fire and things like that. i thought that is a crappy thing to get used to. i also noticed in general that life can be difficult in many different ways. who am i to say whats the worst but facing weapons after one sees abuse is messed up. i personally dont like conflict on the system. as for me i guess i will loose a bunch of sleep if i continue raising vibration. i hope i get used to that quickly. as for 300... i see what you mean. i seen my own big bad wolf invader before. now the negative dream entity is about my situation with the foster parents and having a right of passage via dreams like carl jung suggested. whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger. i personally appreciated grit and hard work after i was an adult age.