Personal note: learning the difference between emotional control and emotional disconnect. I just know my brain is adjusting to trauma it had. Its Processing mostly by disconnect and making life surreal. I'm thankful I still function like I do.

hi. i have no words to describe what has been going on currently. the only words i have is disassociating. i experience a altered consciousness 24/7. so i moved into a place that i dont care for because i needed a place asap. such a place will only make me stronger. unfortunately the building seems a little to hot for my taste. im out of it when im in public. also im changing as far as work. i seem to disassociate there to. i would rather put the mask back on at work but we will see. why the...