hi. i have no words to describe what has been going on currently. the only words i have is disassociating. i experience a altered consciousness 24/7. so i moved into a place that i dont care for because i needed a place asap. such a place will only make me stronger. unfortunately the building seems a little to hot for my taste. im out of it when im in public. also im changing as far as work. i seem to disassociate there to. i would rather put the mask back on at work but we will see. why the mask? to weaponize it against the staff. i dont really care for things anymore. not even music. only the kindest souls and the best friends will get my attention lately. so what is there to be done? self care and work. even if its working on the mind. i need to relearn the meditation state but not sure how i will do that. at least im not sure how i will do that quickly so i can move on in life. well... im integrated but i know what its like to be disconnected a lot. disconnected to think im tired but when i  try to sleep i cant sleep easy. so yeah i will pull through. it just takes getting used to in general. then we will see what kind of person i am. im looking forward to contacting my subconcious and i would like to reverse my age as soon as possible. the ability comes with my condition but i need to be a certain frequency to do it. well i guess thats it. i will chalk this up as mind training but im not sure how long my current affairs will last. i still fight for a good home till this day. anyway be well. - eclipse

"shut up and drive" - rihanna