listen to this one about second nature
https://www.youtube.com/watch?...8s&frags=pl%2Cwn
Listen to this one about sage walk below
https://www.youtube.com/watch?...8s&frags=pl%2Cwn
listen to this video to learn all the gruesome details about sage walk wilderness school, there have been many deaths and related to it.
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Death at sage walk article
healthy russian teen dies from being hiked to death
wilderness therapy frequently asked questions FAQ
another survivor of sage walk wilderness school has chosen to end his life recently. There are not many of us left, so this saddens me.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKQqQUNN2ws
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new interview i did with Amber Stone about
mountain homes youth ranch
It's so funny you mention these behavior modification programs. I spent a year at one from the age of 15-16. I never thought I'd survive to make it out. I have recently been questioning my fathers motivations for sending me there. I was never given a name for who told him to send me. Just "a woman he worked with" ... then when my best friend's mother saw the letters I'd mailed home about the abuse taking place and she went was trying to get me out the "elders" at the cult (Kindom Hall of Jehovah's Witnesses) flat out told her to shut up or she'd find trouble. What skin did they have in the game?! Those "elders" were creeps and perverts, and after I was abducted and locked up there (Tranquility Bay 2, in Jamaica... a WWASP program) my family set me up with a 21 year old man who was high ranking in the relgion. I was 16 years old. He pressured me into sex after a month+ of me telling him I didn't want to. He also anally raped me when I told him no. The "elders" sat me down in a private room (keep in mind they'd known me since I was a little one, and they'd only known him for about 6 months), anyway, they sat me down in a private room, my father sitting next to me, and proceeded to read scriptures from the bible indicating that because I was a woman (16) I had seduced him. My father just sat there silent. Not a bone in his body interested in defending me as they covered up what had happened. They then proceeded to interrupt the congregation's service to publicly announce that no one should associate with me because I was "bad association" ... The high ranking rapist was "privately reproved" with no announcement made publicly about what he had done. This was one of many instances in which I was abused or mistreated in which my father showed zero natural "fatherly protective instinct" of his daughter... of course he abused me as well.
Getting back to "The Program" (that's what it was called by the facilitators of that nightmare of a place), I started wondering if it was really a coincidence that I ended up going through yet another stage of trauma programming (the first that I have a memory of was around 3, then I have another memory again at 5... both of which were horrific, and I only have pieces of memories of them... I have another memory from 3 and while it was really bizarre and involved 3 men in suits taking me out of my room in the night through the wall, I don't specifically recall any trauma, but in my 20's had an "ah ha" moment when I recognized the things I saw as being related to the Freemasons (white pillars, checkerboard floors, deep red velvet curtains, etc)... that memory and the horrific one at 5 I've always remembered... the other horrific one at 3 came back to me at 18 when I was breaking the joints on chicken I was preparing for dinner and it triggered them memory and it was so disturbing I freaked out and instantly suppressed part of the memory.
I'm rambling, I apologize, but I'm really interested to hear someone else making a connection between these "behavior modification programing centers" and all of this. I wasn't sure if it was just yet another random unfortunate trauma event or if it was not as random as I've always thought. Seems I'm not the only one asking that question.
I have a new one about running away from sage walk
This is the Story of me running from my wilderness therapy program Sage Walk, Sage Walk was shut down in 2009 for hiking a 17 year old boy to death. I was there around 2004 and I have many videos about it including this one. If you have been to a wilderness program please leave comments and contact me about it, especially if you want to be interviewed at nateypxgrey@me.com or www.YPXNews.com using the contact form
MariElle posted:It's so funny you mention these behavior modification programs. I spent a year at one from the age of 15-16. I never thought I'd survive to make it out. I have recently been questioning my fathers motivations for sending me there. I was never given a name for who told him to send me. Just "a woman he worked with" ... then when my best friend's mother saw the letters I'd mailed home about the abuse taking place and she went was trying to get me out the "elders" at the cult (Kindom Hall of Jehovah's Witnesses) flat out told her to shut up or she'd find trouble. What skin did they have in the game?! Those "elders" were creeps and perverts, and after I was abducted and locked up there (Tranquility Bay 2, in Jamaica... a WWASP program) my family set me up with a 21 year old man who was high ranking in the relgion. I was 16 years old. He pressured me into sex after a month+ of me telling him I didn't want to. He also anally raped me when I told him no. The "elders" sat me down in a private room (keep in mind they'd known me since I was a little one, and they'd only known him for about 6 months), anyway, they sat me down in a private room, my father sitting next to me, and proceeded to read scriptures from the bible indicating that because I was a woman (16) I had seduced him. My father just sat there silent. Not a bone in his body interested in defending me as they covered up what had happened. They then proceeded to interrupt the congregation's service to publicly announce that no one should associate with me because I was "bad association" ... The high ranking rapist was "privately reproved" with no announcement made publicly about what he had done. This was one of many instances in which I was abused or mistreated in which my father showed zero natural "fatherly protective instinct" of his daughter... of course he abused me as well.
Getting back to "The Program" (that's what it was called by the facilitators of that nightmare of a place), I started wondering if it was really a coincidence that I ended up going through yet another stage of trauma programming (the first that I have a memory of was around 3, then I have another memory again at 5... both of which were horrific, and I only have pieces of memories of them... I have another memory from 3 and while it was really bizarre and involved 3 men in suits taking me out of my room in the night through the wall, I don't specifically recall any trauma, but in my 20's had an "ah ha" moment when I recognized the things I saw as being related to the Freemasons (white pillars, checkerboard floors, deep red velvet curtains, etc)... that memory and the horrific one at 5 I've always remembered... the other horrific one at 3 came back to me at 18 when I was breaking the joints on chicken I was preparing for dinner and it triggered them memory and it was so disturbing I freaked out and instantly suppressed part of the memory.
I'm rambling, I apologize, but I'm really interested to hear someone else making a connection between these "behavior modification programing centers" and all of this. I wasn't sure if it was just yet another random unfortunate trauma event or if it was not as random as I've always thought. Seems I'm not the only one asking that question.
Hello,MaryElle
I just wrote about 1 event that happened to me,but I just read what happened to you...Really scary stuff.The thing is that I was abused as well,by my father and by negative aliens all my life.I dont remember what was happening when they abducted me as a child and later till 2009.From early age I was beaten by drunk idiot,my father+when I went to sleep,almost every night those gray bastards paralyzed me and did scary sh.t to me...I dont know if I wanna know what was happening,but when I write,like now,memories are coming back to me.I just remembered that they were regularly taking semen from me,with grotesque "women" that actually raped me(!).Oh sh.t!I now know that this happened to me too!They took form of ugly old women and forced me to give them,you know what...Wow,I just wanted to say that I feel your pain,but I actually remembered what they were doing to me too...You know,in last days of 2009 was the moment where I showed them,that I will NOT(!) allow any more to be abducted! I become super strong in several occasions and I kicked their asses more than once! They always paralyze me,but I found the way to break through that invisible barrier. Maybe you know what this feels like,when you cant do anything,but you are fully conscious and your eyes are the only "free"thing.So you can see and feel(sometimes not) them doing something to my body.My whole life is one big search for someone that can understand me,that knows how it feels to be helpless...Anyhow,if you want read my new posted text and there is one older where I describe how did they put an implant through my nose int the bone near brain...I really dont want to remember only bad stuff,but it is what it is.The thing is that it seems to me that maybe we could help each other...I saw that only you and just a few other people are not afraid to upload their real pictures,so this is one of the reasons that I want to be in contact.Im not afraid to say what really happened to me and Im not afraid that people will see my real picture(s).I know that we are special people,strong and gentle at the same time.I was in depression for a long time,but now I want to go on with my life.I will not get stuck in this "negativity trap" any more! I choose life!Love is the solution for broken people like we are.Im not afraid to admit that.Im curious about your attitude to wards better life,full of joy and love in every single meaning of that word.Can you go on with your life?Im asking myself the same question...Maybe all this what happened lost its purpose?I like to think that new life is possible and not just possible,I know that it is our obligation to help others after healing ourselves...Im really interested what do you think about that...
Thank You!
