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yeah it looks like alot of milabs, super soldiers, and mk ultra have alters and disassociate. so i been thinking of something in research. Feel free to correct me. i was thinking there might be a case where a person has basic disassociation but the sides never really develop. which might be my case . On top of that i guess the actual meaning of alter is altered consciousness. well i guess with me there is areas of my personality i can feel out but they never became independent. they all are awake with my core. they can have different fun flavors. like one semi developed image is a greaser. i would call him tony because of a dream. then there is sides that may be goth or old simply school and reminds himself of the mafia lifestyle if needed. Of course there is the side thats fun or the side that wants to be chill or old school cool. Which i guess every one has variations of these sides. Im more of a serious person who is more laid back and hard working then fun. Then there is the side thats banished and he is also compulsive. He can show up as a hybrid form which is confusing. i vote he is a archetype directly from abuse. I accept this side but its not appropriate for society. One reason is his moral compass isnt very good. This side is more on the personal side . Yet he never harmed anyone which is good. This is All usual for a person who is integrated about 90 percent.  then there is the sides an ultra might have. there is the side who will speak up against anyone. Not afraid to fight or verbally rip someone a new one. Or even challenge a full car of guys to a over the top fight. this is the most recently developed side. Interesting to see peoples shocked reactions. Especially from authority. it started speaking out against injustice at places with a draconian structure such as work. it can be a dangerous side. Yet there is one thats more dangerous. there is a side wich feels life is a dream. It trances while doing intuitive readings or when something can turn violent. it will turn silent if there is words going on. they use senses first and foremost like its a non human. I feel this is the ultra side. the hyper focus and dream side can show up with the protector side who has a mouth. Its a dangerous combination and i saw it happen if a cop stops me on the side walk if im just walking. so yeah these thoughts are for people who have basic disassociation but never really developed. perhaps not all of us have full alters with personalities. I dont have a programmed alter in this life but that must suck. I would be afraid to hear my trigger in public if i was from a violent program. just food for thought. You may put your own thoughts below. Especially if you have integrated D.I.D. or you disassociate but dont have developed alters. I guess a common thing is we have the ability of splitting. Yet i guess its a range from basic disassociating feelings such as feeling life isnt real to alot more then a hand full of full blown identities. Thanks for reading.

- Eclipse ,  Umbrella clearance Level 8

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