this is the very song that started my trigger posts. its the song dont stop. i dont care for the lyrics and the beat is almost engrained in my head.  it even uses the cheshire cat in the video. total elite symbol. its the one with ears like cats, rabbits, bats, and owls. please listen on guard and adults only. trigger warning... especially for any s!x kitten programing if you have it. https://youtu.be/6iuwBio5EUA

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1. High contrast colors that clash. You ever seen one of those patterns that is like hot pink and bright orange stripes together? Can't do it. It literally triggers a deep down, teeth gritted, I will set your clothes on fire, response. (Not literally, I have never set a persons clothing on fire, but I certainly have wanted to.) It literally feels like it is making my brain throb.

2. Having nothing to do with my hands and being in a situation where I am not able to speak for a long period of time. Either one, but both? Internal screams. I have the ability to do...things...with my words, the volume and tone of my voice, and projecting my will through those words, tones, inflections, patterns of speech, and if I am really fired up, exacerbated by touch. It's low grade hypnosis basically, and it's very, very difficult for me to be without the ability to use it, even if it is just a social convention, like don't talk in a movie theater that keeps me from doing so.

3. High speed, shortened video clips. I am not sure I can describe this one. I know, beyond any shadow of any doubt that have images essentially burned into my consciousness was a part of whatever training/conditioning/testing I went through as a kid. So, seeing a movie or show where they do like a flashback episode and the person is seeing really short, and really fast images of their entire life flashing before their eyes. Nope, nope, nope. My memory tries to grab the edges of whatever psychological band-aid is barely holding my brain together and rip that sumbitch right off and I am not prepared for that yet. Cue a mental struggle for control of the brain/band-aid/memory situation.

4. Last one, I promise. EXTREMELY SPECIFIC. When I was in first grade, my entire class went to a specific museum that sells a specific kind of pen in the gift shop. It has a model T ford in the upper part of the pen and when you turn it end to end, it goes up and down inside the pen and to a first grader it's the coolest damn thing in the world. And I wanted one. Saved all my tooth fairy money, cuz we were poor, to get one when we went on the museum field trip. Except I didn't go. Because it was a testing/training day where I was dropped off at school and picked up and taken (somewhere) 10 minutes into my school day. And I threw such a big fit about that damn pen that somwhow I was given one by a white haired man with a kind face and grey eyes at my next testing/training session. And it made my damn year. I don't know what I told my mom, or if I told her, but that pen was my treasured possession for years. And then my kid brought one home from school. Got it from the school nurse. School nurses aren't in our budget in our district. I've been staring at, and turning that thing over in my hands for three days now, trying to get an impression from it and that damn pen is just blocking me. Yes, you heard me, the pen is blocking me. (PS. Please no one say it, if I take them out of school and this is about them, the powers that be will find a way to get to them anyway, probably in a much more harmful manner. I really feel this was a message for me, not them, as the child in question is....differently abled, and therefore not likely to be of much use in this particular scenario, with this particular group.)

thanks @jwj2020. something to think about. i actually get all of those but i dont think its my case. sort of off topic but kind of not: well one thing i will mention is i was just thinking of this so called friend of my mom who was a fbi agent. it could have been a agent that was dropping in on me. anyway that guy even sent me a fbi hat. when my mom was simply his realtor. that was odd. then he was a big shot who moved to DC. odd memory. plus some odd nurse gave me a teddy bear when i was little. like 2! odd as well. bears are used for programming and he had a stuffed hat with the colors of pizza because of a red B on a yellow hat. i was never able to google that thing. i just know it was made in the 70s or it was old a hand me down. thanks again for your reply.

@jwj2020 before i forget i want to be the first to say welcome to the forum. i'm eclipse

Im an extremely sensitive Empathe , So everything triggers Me . Even the slightest insinuation As a Third Party observer in Pineal Astral too . Its Not even My triggers . I always have to counter with Acknowledging the supposed offense | trigger , Of the unnecessary and unsolicited criminal  double talk ‘ ( so obviously intentionally e… with constant false pretense and façade, back flips of Ehp mindz .  Not of Good Intent or Of Nature )  - And State And  Do the Normal Natural Positive Affirmation Instead !

I have to slough off somebody else ‘ s   stuff ‘ trying to cue off Me … And expect It to be Unadeleted , Deleted , Appropriated , InKarmaed elsewhere , Off  ~ Serving Humanity  !  

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Oh thats Cute ‘ ( the Teddy Bear ) , to imply multi dimensional humanistic personality and compassion ? I became re-acquainted withe a part of Mars ( @2015 ish ) trying to move Me off the Beach ( with lucifer and bahphomet there ( in GMOed ) . Mars looking up at The Sky asking for Gabriels help as We were walking away on the Beach Boardwalk , … Military watching and trying to assist Us with money covertly … ) -  He had a TeddyBear tattoo , Me asking if thats how He gets the Ladies ?  He looked at Me angrily asking that .

I still have TeddyBears to snuggle up   withe , My xHubby Not around :  (

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… and I forgot to mention I had My TeddyBear , Snow “ ( a White Teddy ) that x withe Me and I was using Him as a Pillow ( during My forced camping ‘ ) , and that part of Mars ended up laying His head on Snow s face , and I freaked out , because of the Diss  . He quickly understood . I know it sounds silly but there is Something to Nothing ‘ Too !