Maybe i should try to give more details to my life and then maybe ill be able to get help, lol. I am a 20 year old American female. my mother abandoned me and my sister when i was 6 and she was 3. she is an amazing woman, the only positive figure in my life. growing up i had some negative feeling for her bc she left us with such horrible people but she believed it was the best option i guess. sorry if im confusing my thoughts are always fast and scrambled, like i think about 2 things at the same time. I moved states to be near her at 18.
Strange things have always occurred around me, i cant hear peoples thoughts but its like i just know what they are thinking and feeling. people even complete strangers feel they should spill there darkest secrets and problems to me, and this for some strange reason makes them feel better, i mean since i was 4 (as early as i can remember) people would talk to me about there deep deep issues and i would listen and watch them cry. most of the time it would make me cry as well bc of the pain i "felt" for them this still occurs to this day.
I have one memory that mom swears must of been a dream from before she left to become a cross country truck driver. i remember being in my grandpas house in the main room, the front door and back door are adjacent to each other. a older lady i would describe as a witch lady for lack of better description came in the front door and started talking to mom. i did not like what they were saying and it frightened me so i ran out the back door, threw the horse pasture and into the woods. i don't remember coming back or what was said. it felt like it was real.
I was also born almost a full month later than my due date and for some reason the doctors wouldn't give my mom the medicine to induce labor even tho she begged them, because i was born late a nurse doctor would come to the house to check on me once a week for the first few months. she had told my mom i was an old soul and needed to be watched at all times. my mom always joked about this growing up bc she isn't religious nor did she think much of it. at 1 month i started rolling to my bottle and other various items around the house, then i would army crawl, by 10 months i spoke in complete sentences and could walk freely around the house, but was completely bald except for a few clear hairs until i was 2 years old. i looked like an alien as a child bald with giant blue eyes even creepier the fact that i could speak in full sentences as i stated previously.
When i was a year old my mom said i felt cold to the touch so she ran a warm bath since it was later in the evening anyway and she needed one as well. she got in with my and when she felt my skin again she became really worried she says i felt like ice so she turned me around to face her, my lips and fingernails had turned blueish purple and she freaked out jumping out of the tub calling the ambulance and wrapping me in blankets. she also said my eyes were funny, im not sure how im guessing just spaced out from how she explains it. when the ambulance got their i was still blue and cold they were their maybe 5 mins when i was no longer quiet and cold. i started to scream and i went from a temp of 95 to a temp of 104 they quickly brought me in the hospital over night. they told mom they got my temperature down but wanted to hold me over night by myself. its odd and its never happened again up until a few days ago. (i kept getting goosebumps and my bones felt like ice then i would get hot as hell like how i imagine a menopause hot flash and literly feel myself radiating heat.) it was freaky. it make have been a fever but it made me remember this story.
Then the odd dreams lately and iv always had and excellence intuition i just normally doubt myself then realize my gut is damn near always right. looking forward to your replies. thank you, take care, stay blessed.